I lead a simple life each day
Have a mind of my own
I am determined to achieve my goals
I know I can and I know I will
So Welcome to The Diary Of My Life
North South East West
Farah Ain Alwee
23rd August's Baby
I'm turning 17
Studying Pharmaceutical sciences
Nanyang Polytechnic
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.:Interests:.
Aspires to be a surgeon
Plans to get her car lisence, latest by 21
Dreams of getting her bike license at the age of 22
Aiming to get a GPA of more than 2.5
Perseveres to own a car by the age of 25
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.:Lovey Dovey:. ORANGE! My Darling Friends Family Sweet Memories My Mobile PSP Slim Olympus camera Acer 4920
EVERYTHING BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL!
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.:Hatey Batey:. Being Angry Being hurt People Who hurts others Egoistic People
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.:Wish List:. Vaio laptop Flat Screen Tv in my room My own room A diploma To see my darling everyday Clothes Happiness My dream house A chance to achieve my ambition Good O'levels results for darls
Monday, December 1, 2008
I finally realised that it's not easy to shop with a guy. You can spend hours at a store contemplating. Hmm. Not forgetting, i hate waiting. Oh well, i still had fun. (:
Who am i talking about. None other than Haziqkadri. The plan was to meet at DhobyGhaut control station (passenger service) at 130. If only i knew he had a cell phone with him, life would be easier for me. Sharifah and me wanted to eat at MacD. so we headed to Plaza Singapura to have our lunch while waiting for Haziq. At 120 sharp, i left MacD and went to the control station nearest to PS. He was not there. Urm Help? I went in and out of that station for like 2-3 times and i still did not see him!
Decided to just walk back to PS when he called. Great! In an angry tone, he asked where i am. The best part was, he called me 'slenger'! How nice. Haha. Well, he's no different. (: *correct Haziq??*
Ate at MacD, Sharifah left and we headed to Cotton On. Seriously, the guys clothes are pretty limited and expensive!! Haziq then suggested to go to Wisma. Bought his clothes for work and we're done! Finally. Walked to Far East and had our early dinner. Took 5 home! (:
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Things are definitely different now. I hate whatever happened lately and i hope it won't happen again. I'm just glad to have all my dearies by me throughout the 'crisis'. Now, i shall *according to Mr. Haziq Kadri* Live my Life! Woohoo! Heh. (:
So, common test week is near!! Super near. 1 week time. What will I be doing this whole week? Mug i guess. Heheh. CT after Hari raya Haji. How nice can life get. The good thing is, I've got 2 weeks break after CT! Whee. Looking forward to it. OH! Projects!! Hmm.
Anyway, looking forward to BAND CAMP!! Haha. Speaking of band. I THINK i can't, play clarinet anymore. ): i shall give it a try during band camp. Hopefully mom allows and hopefully it doesn't clash with OGL camp.
*SMILE*
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Hey, got an announcement to make. i won't be blogging till things improve for me. Apologies. To all, TC. I'll try be back soon.
Monday, November 24, 2008
If i could, i would like to apologise for not being perfect. I would like to apologise for not being who i really am. Friends, family and boyfriend. They are always there for me. They have always been there but i just can't show them my true self. All these years, i thought myself how to keep my feelings to myself. Some things are not meant to be said. Do not blame me for who i am. I can't help it. I do not want to be this way. It is not easy to keep things to myself. It is depressing but again, i can't help it. I do not know how i managed to cope with it all these years. now, I'm just too tired. Is change possible? I don't know. Something tells me, there is no hope for me to be 'normal'. I know there are people out there who will listen to my problems, lend a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on but can I open myself up to them? It's just me.
You said it wasn't
Gonna be like it was before
Then it happened again
Pushing me back out the door
Thought it would be for real this time
Love me forget about the signs
So now what do I do
Now, that I know that we're through
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Is this how you wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery
Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby, forget about me
Too late, sorry
I didn't even have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give a lot more
I would've given the world
Right in the palm of your hand
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Is this how you wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery
Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby, forget about me
Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
Cause heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love
Yeahhhh Ohh
Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, Baby, forget about me